I read I Don’t Know How I’m Doing from The Life I Didn’t Choose’s Blog and it hit me that the past weekend began our last set of “firsts” before the accident. Before my baby went home to Jesus. Continue reading “The Beginning of the “last” set of “firsts”….”
Closing in on the Anniversary…..
We are closing in on the first anniversary of us losing Big Bubby on that fatal morning. We are planning a celebration of life and friends and family are coming from all over the country to join in. Continue reading “Closing in on the Anniversary…..”
Life Changes, Carrying On, Making New Memories….
I haven’t really posted consistently in the last several weeks. We have had a multitude of things going on around us. Since we live in New Orleans and Million Dollar Brother and Baby Sis live in Lubbock, we travel a lot to see them on the field at the football games. It is 14 hours one way so by the time we get back to the house we are beat.
Continue reading “Life Changes, Carrying On, Making New Memories….”
Nominated Again! Versatile Blogger Award!
Thank you again to Please take time to check out the thought provoking blogs she does over at Intentergy.
I know that all my friends and family are out there saying, WOW, can’t believe the girl who won’t get up in front of a crowd and speak has been awarded two awards in a week. This is my only outlet for my grief and it seems to be helping not only me but others learn what I am going through. Also, if I help one person with my story, then I have given Big Bubby something to smile about all over heaven.
As a recipient of the Versatile Blogger Award, I am to share 7 facts about myself. Seven facts that I am sure are to demonstrate my versatility.
- I am able to multitask at work, as it is definitely needed in my world of work.
- Writing has shown me that I can write about different events in my life both awesome and devastating but still manage to make a story out of them.
- I definitely have versatile feelings now. I used to try to be the strong one for all around me. I have learned through the loss of Big Bubby that you are not alone and must allow those around you to help you get through tough seasons in life.
- I learned last night, I can accomplish putting a desk together without the assistance of my husband. (It may have even went faster than most since I read the instructions like you are supposed to do—no offense husband). 🙂
- I have learned over the last year that I have to be able to change my mood to be able to force myself to get up and go about my days. There are more days than not that I would prefer to stay curled up in bed and just sleep my life away until Big Bubby and I meet at the Heavenly Gate.
- After 40 something years, I have learned that I can write something I would have never attempted before my greatest loss.
- I am a country girl at heart but I must be versatile and be able to show up professional at work. Most work associates don’t know just how country I really am…:)
FOOTBALL SEASON IS UPON US….
So it is fall, school is back in, and football is starting up. As I have previously posted, Million Dollar Brother was chosen as the Texas Tech Masked Rider back in the Spring. If any of you know (Texas Tech Alum for sure know) football of any kind, pee wee, grade school, middle school, high school, college, professional, you will find it in Texas. One of the most honored traditions at Texas Tech is being chosen to be the Masked Rider. There are only 55 of them in the 62 years the program has been around. How many people can say they are one of 55 mascots to a Division One college football team? This is one proud momma! Continue reading “FOOTBALL SEASON IS UPON US….”
SUNSHINE BLOGGER AWARD!
WOW, thank you INTENTERGY for nominating me for the Sunshine Blogger Award award! I sure would not have guessed a year ago, I would be writing regularly on a blog to the world. I am 40-something and everyone who has known me for any portion of my life knows that opening my heart and soul to the world would not have been done if not for our loss. In just a few short months I have gone from being someone no one knows much about to clearly opening my soul to the world.
The goal of this award is to share about yourself and then nominate other bloggers you feel deserve the same recognition. So here goes:
Anxiety X 100%
Since the loss of Big Bubby, I have struggled with high anxiety. Riding in cars in rush hour traffic or late at night when other drivers might be falling asleep or drunk cause me to stress whereas I have never been that way in the past. I have always had high stress jobs where deadlines were basically in stone due to US government regulations.
Grief and the Grieving…..
No one ever gets up one morning as says “Today, I want to stay in my grief and not ever find a way out”, well some might, but that’s not me. The hardest thing I have faced over the last nine months is learning I am not as strong as I thought I was before losing Big Bubby. I can’t always just push aside thoughts and feelings and go on with my life. For those who know me best, you relate to what I am talking about.
Nine Months – Come and Gone
Big Bubby has been gone nine months now. The 10th came and went with little pomp en circumstance. I am not sure how I feel about that. Am I already forgetting what happened and when? Am I losing touch with my baby because he is no longer on this earth? I feel like I let him down not acknowledging the day we lost him nine months ago.
Shattered Dreams and Shattered Faith 