I am going to be trying out some of the Daily Prompt blog prompts this year as well. Just to get my writing better and on a more consistent habit.

I know my family and friends will all fall out of their chairs when they read that I am even thinking of writing a book. I know there are tons of books already out there from grieving parents about every way a child could pass, but maybe my story is a little different and has a different perspective than all the others and if it helps one person besides me and I can get someone to publish it, then I have achieved my goal. Continue reading “Float”

Well Into the New Year….

As I started this new year, I promised myself that I was going to be more proactive about a lot of things. Included below are a handful of what I promised myself:

  • a budget for my family that we are going to stick to
  • writing/reading the scripture every day (I have a plan to follow to keep me on track)
  • working through a wonderful bible study that Kathleen Duncan and her husband have put together regarding Grief
  • Seeing the joy in my life not just my loss
  • Live in the today, not in what could have been

These are just a few of the things on my list of reminders (I refuse to use the word resolution because I never accomplish those and I am determined to accomplish these). Continue reading “Well Into the New Year….”


Letter to my Big Bubby:

It has been a little over a year, we lost you November 10th, 2015. It’s going to be another crazy holiday without you because Million Dollar Brother and Baby Sis are moving the week before Christmas. I am hoping that when I get there, everything will be unpacked and put away. 🙂


Giving It All to God…..

What a powerful statement yet so hard to do as a Christian with a type A personality. In a previous post Live Simply, Love Generously, Care Deeply, Speak Kindly, Leave the Rest to God! I talked about being able to do all these things except the last, Leave the Rest to God. I am still struggling, and probably will be for a while, with God taking my baby boy. I have never been good at letting God lead me anywhere. I fight where he wants to take me and my family sometimes. I blame that on my personality of wanting to do everything on my own terms.

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Working on Finding My Faith Again!

Faith in God, what does that word mean to you? Do you have faith in a higher power? Do you pray daily? The very definition of Faith is to believe in a higher power that no one in today’s times has seen physically. Faith is a word that tells others that you believe that someday your savior is coming for you whatever savior you may believe in.

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Live Simply, Love Generously, Care Deeply, Speak Kindly, Leave the Rest to God!

I read this somewhere not long after losing Big Bubby but couldn’t find an author to attribute it to. it is very fitting to my situation as I am/was a Type A personality. Everything had to be in its place and have order to it. After losing Big Bubby, my entire mental processing has changed.

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And The Hits Just Keep Coming! Headstones, Babies, Prom, and Mothers Day!

Just when you think that God is giving you a break from memories, pain, loss, etc. Another huge milestone (hit) comes. We learned on 4/19/2016 that our son’s headstone was in. It has been too wet in Dallas to set the stone. Not only that but the same day, we learned that Big Bubby’s best friend, Best Man, and his wife are having a baby. We are so totally excited for Best Man and his wife, but it is bittersweet since Big Bubby won’t be here to enjoy and participate in it. Maybe a good thing because Best Man would be going behind Big Bubby telling the kid not to do what Big Bubby was telling him/her in Big Bubby fashion.

Mothers Day was this past weekend as well. We were in Dallas for Baby Sis’s Senior prom and for Million Dollar Brother’s appearance with the Masked Rider. I wasn’t wanting to do much for Mother’s Day but because both kids were going to be in town, my husband and I decided to make the trip to see them. It was tough to see two of my three children knowing that one would never call to wish me a Happy Mother’s Day again.

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