It is funny how life throws you curve balls and you end up doing things you would never have seen yourself doing years ago. I am a very private person. I don’t like to be in the spotlight at all. I am taking a blogging course that has you write daily posts, so these will be shorter than my normal blogs just because they are daily.
After losing Big Bubby though, this blog site has been a refuge for me to get my feelings out. I have started a challenge where each day I am given a topic to write on. I am going to put these under Daily Writing Prompts. You are welcome to read them. I am sure some will tie into my grief journey but some may not.
I just felt as though I needed to try to write about other things besides my depressive mental status around the death of my son and this would be a good way to do that. I have never been a writer by nature. For twenty years I tried to keep a consistent journal and never have been able to until the loss of our Big Bubby. I try to write to him each day.
I also write to express my feelings. I have always been better at writing how I feel then saying how I feel. A year ago, you would have never seen my opening myself up to the world to let everyone know how I feel or what my world is like now. Maybe in some strange way, this is God’s plan for me to express myself so that those behind me on this journey can find me and find peace in some of what I write. If that is the case, the unbearable emptiness I feel daily is worth someone else finding peace they are not alone. I am so new to the grief of losing my son, I don’t know that this is helping yet, but am determined to continue on with it. If not for me, but for the thousands of others that might find it and find hope they can get to tomorrow.