I think that I have mentioned in an earlier blog about writing a book on this whole experience I am going through. I have found a website to assist new writers (totally for me because it is literally a step by step process). The problem is, now its real.
I have never written a book in my life. What the heck was I thinking that I could potentially write a book that would help someone else? Where do I start? Do I tell about my growing up and how Big Bubby was to come? Or do I start from the day of the accident and go from there?
Now that I have put it out there that I think it is a good idea for me to try, I am nervous to start. What if no one likes it? What if I can’t do it?
So many questions unanswered!
All these questions to me are Satan trying to push me away from doing something good in the world. What I do know is that I am definitely capable of writing. I have shown myself that with this blog and the amount of support I have received for it.
I have sat and thought about where to begin and am stuck there. I don’t want the book to be about me. I want it to be a healing book about losing your child and the long journey you have a head of you to get back to some semblance of normal, an “after” that you didn’t want in the first place. To do that means I do have to tell a little bit of the “before” days so that the difference in my story is explained.
So for my first adventure into writing I have to come up with an outline, step one so to speak. Wish me lots of luck this weekend on doing so because I have sat a high expectation of trying to have this book ready for the second angelversary which is 11/10/17! I may not make it but I have to set goals so that I can try and push myself to achieve them.